i wish i was normal.

slit me open and make me numb.

the world is so full of noise and its all i know. i wish i was normal.

i wish i was like all my other friends.

i want to experience what its like to be a normal teenager.

i want to be loved, to be seen, to go out to concerts, to live.

i am not happy with life and yet, i watch all my friends live life with joy.

they’re experiencing what its feels like to be in love and to be free to grow.

i think sometimes i wish i were pretty like them, more sound then them.

more mentally stable maybe.

no boy would ever love me, i know that. im just a pal.

i am nothing.

i am sleeping and i hope it is indefinitely.